College Melissa - Weird huh?

WOW
Well...I've been told to write so I am doing so...but this will be short. Basically I danced too much last night and my legs hurt - oh yeah and I have that thing called homework to do as well. I've decided Im not going to talk about any of the happening in LC other than Mr Kelsey died which means I might be going to a funeral. [He was the choir director when I was in 7 and 8 grade] Because LC is done with - whoo. DAVIS is "hella" fun and I am having a wonderful time despite my full schedule. I made choir and there are cute boys to talk to! I'll write more later.

Waiting for Thanksgiving
SO, it's thursday, Nov.14...and I can't study, and I'm being told to blog. So here goes. Not much is going on. I'm sick, and I can't study at the moment. So we're watching airplane and waiting for my pass to register for classes. What has happened??? So this weekend, my bro (matt not dan) came up to visit. And Markus (weaver) and Emily Lerner came up as well. WE all went to the stanford USC game on saturday. We sat next to the USC band...which was...interesting. Those folks have the weirdest cheers. Honestly - no college should actually spell out "S-O-U-T-H-E-R-N C-A-L-I-F-O-R-N-I-A". It was quite a mouthful and we were laughing at them. And then we went to San Fran to attempt to split up the drive back since we had to shove four people into the back seat of the good ol weaver corolla. And yeah - then i started feeling crappy. And it just got bad from there. And ive been sick ever since. I finally started taking medicine. What happened before that....Oh - yes...so..begining of nov = anniversary with caleb. you all know what that means. So saturday night we decide to go out. So - we find out about this SAE party but we dont have a ride. So we were just going to go down frat row and do something there. Which probably wouldve had a much better result. Then glen calls and he wants to go to the SAE thing and has a car. So, my roommate and I take about 2 shots of rum and go meet zoe, glen, and his friend tim. [ Okay you all dont know who Glen and Tim are so - here goes. Glen lives across the hall from zoe and is like my best friend up here. He's a chill guy - reminds me of Adam if that helps you guys. Tim, ive only known him for like 2 weeks or something. Hes super nice and I talk to him a lot, but sadly, he goes to UC san diego. SO - there you go] So we all go, and I have 8 jello shots. Jello shots are sooo good...I never knew! Then I followed it with two shots of vodka. Okay - so for those of you (liz and Jess and Jenn) that know - that is waaaaaaaaaaaaay over my limit. So i very quickly become sick. Yeah - thats no good - Damn anniversaries. Oh - and to answer the questions about caleb. - No - were not together - and yes we still talk - no we do not hate each other, however, I still very much doubt that were gonna be together ever - so STOP ALL THE BETTING!!!! I think I hit all the questions. I think thats about it (happy martin!!) Oh wait - jess - boys here - umm....some. but none that im interested in really. frat boys arent my type thank you. I miss you all! I miss socal - but I love it here. XMAS sounds like fun jenn!!! SNOW AND PARTY!! I cant wait till thanksgiving -hot tubbing laser tagging and apparently good ol Mike F is throwing another party. And he said its ok if liz and jess and i want to take another shower tomorrow. But we have to be quiet this time, because apparently theres nothing more annoying then screaming rich girls. HAHAHAHA - I miss you all!!!

hhhmmm....so i dont know when i last blogged. but certain people (ahem martin) are upset with me. SO i am blogging now. WEll - I will tell you all that I love college, and I love UC Davis, and I am having an awesome time. Im doing well in class - whoa! - and its just soo much fun. So lets see....major events. Well, robbie zoe and I went to Berkely to see the UCLA CAL game. That was some crazy fun. It ended up being the most random group of LC people ever. There was : me, zoe, robbie, troy, david m, ryan y, adam schell, monica renner, fabiana, annie lee (boo!!- i didnt talk to her - humph!), tommy mc, david kim, scott moura, and alan sch. HHMMMM... i think im missing sommeone. Im sorry to whoever im forgetting. Anyhow, I never imagined that id be driving around berkeley just me and ryan young for like an hour - that was weird. And then - taking shots with ryan and tommy and adam and zoe - definitely the high light. Troy - was awesome as usual and bc he was...well...taken care of for the night...gave me everything i needed for me to do the same - I luv troy!!! So, yeah....then we stayed in Scotts dorm...he got really sick...and some other things happened that night that im not supposed to talk about. And dont you have to worry - i didnt do anything. heheheheheheheheehe. Ok...so since then not much has been going on. everyone has midterms and all the frats and tormenting their pledges now - so no big parties. Hmmm... ok so - this morning i had my super hard history midterm (which i rocked by the way - ehehehee) but yesterday...i still went out. bc im stupid. Anyhow, there is this place called the grad. Its a restraunt during the day, but at night turns into a club. So last night, I studied for my midterm from 630-9ish, and then stupidly went to this club. i thought wed go, wouldnt like it and leave around 11. oh how wrong i was. we got there at 930ish and it wasnt very crowded, but we came early so we wouldnt have to pay as much. little did we know that it was costume night. so we were pretty much the only ones not in costume. so once again i thought it was going to suck. Anyway - then we see these hot guys...who... are dressed as firemen. But...not normal firemen...there are wwearing firemen costumes meant for 5 year olds. ok so were all like - dude - we need to dance with the firemen. ok - then we see - i swear - a matt damon look alike. we all just kinda frove and had our mouths drop. Anyway, so we all were like - god i wish theyd dance with us. So we keep dancing and for some reason all these other guys kept dancing with us. Which obviously gave us some more confidence. And so we were contemplating going for the firemen but - b4 we could do anything - they actually came to us! holy crap! it was awesome. One grabbed zoe, one grabbed me, and then grabbed shea as a mysterious friend of his grabbed me. Not knowing who this was - i look around aty who was wrapped around my waist - and oh yes - it was matt damon look alike! holy crap - not only was matt damon look alike friends with the firemen, but they all came to us! whoo-hoo!!!! ok - and it was only like 11. Okay - so hell no - we were going anywhere. MAtt damon guy started talking and his name is actually justin. Then shea and i started dancing together (god guys really like girls dancing together) and then we foudn out that justin - can really dance. really dance. better than anyof us. i felt so inadequate. he started spinning me around and throwing me around on his knee - it was so much fun. later they left, but then kept coming back...whoo hoo. the nice thing - is when they leave thy all go "see ya later" and kiss you on the cheek - hehehe im such a girl. Okay - so later they get us water. And find out shea and i are roommates. So - they ask for our number to reach both of us for this big halloween party the next night - where we have to come and have to wear a costume this time. Anyway - then we try to act like were not crazy about them - and go up on stage and start dancing - where really theres about an hour left - and the three of us are the shit - honestly we are running the dance - it was so cool. guys would come up and just be like - oh please - do that again! it was sooooo much fun. and then the three guys came up, but we allready had other guys dancing with us, so they grabbed some more girls and all of us were dancing on the stage. then the last song of the night came on - which means its one am, and we make it all about the girls - so us girls start dancing with each other. And at the end, everyone was inviting us to go places - and i was sooooo mad i still had to study for my midterm 8 hours later. So we're leaving. Adn the people are screaming - everyone out ! go home! everyone off the dance floor, then were walking out and they say to us - you three can stay. and we laugh and say weve got to go, adn they tell us to come back - so now - its every wed night baby!!!! whoo hoo so i went home - studied till 430. qwoke up at 745 - studied some more - took my midterm at 9 - did really well and came back adn slept till 4 - and now im going to starbucks - 3 cheers for college!!!!

wow - so last night - hahahahahaha - yeah baby. i love davis. college is so much better than high school. So that was fun....i probably did some stuff i shouldnt have. But i think the best thing was when a girl ran up to me this morning and gave me a hug. Then she said remember last night - oh wait i bet you dont. Apparently i hung out with her for like an hour last night. Her name is anna. I didnt even recognize her. Anyway - sad news - my mother called and told me that my grandfather died this morning. So i dont know if that means that im going to oregon for his funeral or if im staying here. anyway - i love you all and i miss you....i hope you guys have been doing well!!!

UC DAVIS - whoohoo go aggies - Mustang baby. Davis is hella cool, that's right - hella cool. Im living in nor cal, better start talking like it right?! So, I'm having an awesome time. Meeting tons of people. Yesterday i witnessed the most disgusting thing however. Across the hall from Zoe's dorm there are two guys. Glen and Greg. Greg is a Russian jew who just moved here from Boston. Adn Glen is a christian cool guy whos lived in Davis forever. Anyway, we somehow convinced glen at the dc to drink tabasco from the bottle. Then to follow this. We created a concoction of guava and orange juice, that liquid that first comes out of the kethup bottle, salt, zoe's backwash, and a pepperoni. He proceeded to drink it and then gag. All this while the rest of us rush to the other end of the table cracking up. - oh yes college life. Hmm...what else. - oh frat parties - nothing too special. Happens everynight, and the guys always give away all the beer to the girls first (lucky me huh?). Poor Robbie - hahahaha. Hmmm.....what else, ummm....spanish class is going to kill me - it is hella hard. but everything else is good. There is a big dance tonight, or i can go to the frat parties, but i havent decided yet, other than that not too much is going on - i love you all - SO/NOR cal whoo hoo...but pretty soon im gonna go get some hella gross grub with a grip. goodnight you all

Please Stop Leaving Me!!!!
WARNING WARNING - ENTERING CRAPPY BLOG ZONE - DO NOT READ FOR ANY SENSE OF ENJOYMENT SHEEP PIMP HERDERS ESPECIALLY NOT ALLOWED TO READ THIS BLOG DANGER DANGERI miss everyone sooo much right now. I never thought I'd be home earlier than my cufew on a friday night - but today is proof that it can happen. All of my girls are gone - I miss you Jenn Jess and Liz!!!Now that Dan and I are done, and he's out of town - Zack Ryan and Dan I won't be hanging out with. WARNING WARNING WARNING - CONTINUOUS CRAP WILL CONTINUE TO FOLLOW THIS WARNING - DO NOT EXPECT ANYTHING BETTER THAN WHAT YOUR POOR EYES HAVE ALLREADY BEEN SUBJECTED TOO - I've been hanging out with Caleb a ton. But Taylor Is very anti - "missy & caleb", so when Taylor comes around I feel I should just leave. WHY ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? CAN YOU NOT SMELL THE UTTER BOREDOM WITH WHICH THIS BLOG HAS BEEN WRITTEN I WARN YOU DO NOT READ FURTHER -> Which means I go home and look for messages from friends - which aren't there. Then I get occasional phone calls from college folks - thank you so much for those of you that this refers to - it cheers up my day. Sooo...not very eventfull. OKAY - NOW YOU HAVE DEFINITELY WASTED TO MUCH TIME - SO NOW COMES THE APOLOGY MODE - I AM EVER SO SORRY FOR ANY PROBLEMS YOU HAVE WITH THE QUALITY OF MY BLOG MY PHRASEOLOGY OR MY RACIST ATTITUDE TOWARD SHEEP PIMP HERDERS ...2 days Ago was Blakes last night. I'm gonna miss that boy. But then he threw me out of the jacuzzi and into the pool. All this so that he and caleb could skinny dip in the jacuzzi.apparently its tradition for them. And when blake told me to join Caleb screamed at blake and said no and then blake and I threw caleb in the pool then blake threw me in and then threw caleb back in. It was fun - after my feet regained feeling.JACUZZI - ITS BEEN HOW LONG SINCE IVE BLOGGED AND THATS WHAT I HAVE TO TALK ABOUT - ID HAVE MORE BUT OTHER PEOPLE HAVE ALLREADY SPOKE OF IT (MARTIN - THE FLYING SHEEP PIMP HERDER - AKA GUARISHA)So - then blake gave me a CD of all of the songs that they recorded on his computer. I'm obsessed with "under the covers" for those of you who know what im talking about - rachel and annie. HHHMMMMM AGAIN - APOLOGIES AROUND - BANNANA HAMMOCK TO EVERYONE AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR And - yes martin (my "young couple" jamba partner) I am curently downloading silverchair.Any group that can sing that high definitely deserves some attention - go tenors (fish are good too. God - im tired and bored = deadly combination for bloggidge. yes bloggidge.HMMMMMMM....SNICKERS....DAMN GOOD....Hmmm....I want to go to college now - I am sick of la canada - parents curfew - my crappolicious cell phone, the crap I get from people about secret crushes (ahem - martin), gardners hollering if they see something with a slightly female figure, having to drive 15 minutes to get to anything, my sea hag mother, my friends ditching me and going to their college parties, but most of all - the fact that i have nothing better to do than to sit at my computer on a friday night and bitch and moan about my life. This is truly the "depressing zone" of the phenomenon that is the blog.BOYS GIRLS SHEEP SHEEP PIMPS SHEEP PIMP HERDERS KEEBLER ELVES LADIES GENTLEMEN KIDS PRICKS PERVERTS DORKS DWEEBS NERD JOCKS PREPS AND SNICKERDOODLE GRASSHOPPERS = IM SORRY

Something stupid
Yes - I'm a whore. Yes- I'm a drama queen. All I want is attention and Yes - I'm going to hell. When something you care about begins to hurt, you get confused. Then you try to stop the pain. Then you throw it away in confusion. You never stop caring. So now you're alone and hurt. Then you do something stupid. And what you throw away returns for a moment. You wake up and dont remember a thing. And now you just want to stop caring. And then you do. Nothing matters. You realize you're desires are insignificant. And you realize. If you care about nothing - nothing can hurt you. When nothing matters - you do nothing and you are alone. And when a someone who sees all the crap youve done looks at you and is scared about the dullness is your eyes - you get scared to. How can you let your life slip away? So you want to care again, but not about yourself or your life, but for those you love. You love your friends and family, some more than others, some you love despite their idiocy, others, despite their rudeness. They tell you they miss the way you were. you begin to cry and try to tell them you just don't see any point to anything any more. Then they doubt that youc are for them. And all you want to do is show that you do, and actually have something matter again. So they look in your eyes and hold you and kiss you on the forehead and rock back and forth and tell you everythings going to be okay and that they'll always be there. And then you realize you really do care, adn nothing will change that. you forget everything else, but that moment, and the one thing you know for a fact you care about. you forget the people, the promises, the obligations, the drama, and just feel important because you care about something and you know someone cares about you. And then - once again - you do something stupid, and the whole cycle begins again.

So - I apologize for not "blogging" and my most sincere apologies to martin for making him listen to "girl talk" all of tonight.Anyway, I've been having a really good time since I got back from vacation. I'm not going to discuss my vacation because as most know, vacations are with familyies, and family inclues my mother. Which means I was with my mother in close quarters for two weeks. - enough said. I've been hanging out with lots of people. And my boyfriend has been getting upset with me because I'm not hanging out with him. But my point of veiw is that I'll have a month with him, and just him, and not that long left with everyone else. So, He will just have to deal or dump me. We went and saw a screening of a movie in burbank. We being, me, dan, martin, jess, liz, ryan, zack and justene. hey - the guy:girl ratio was actually equal. whoo-hoo. Yeah - so dan and i are having issues. And yes - i am aware that i am a drama queen. I hung out with jess pretty much all of today. Tomorrow is the bbq thingy at rachels. Thatll be good times. Getting everyone's info and stuff. then jess and I are going to go down to newport to visit jenn (or at least that's the plan, my parents might get a little to pissy to let me do that)I'm going to be so sad - jess is leaving on sunday and liz is leaving on monday - im going to miss them so much (ps if youre reading I lov eyou guys!!!) I allready miss jenn. we were talking about austin powers and i missed he immitations. Julie came back in town for a few days. I took her to the airport while she was crying with her teddy bear. It was really sad. I hopefully will get to go and visit her in New York on new years. Ive been talking to Caleb a lot. Pretty much every time we talk I just want to cry. We talk about how we're goiong to miss each other and how its going to be so weird. Ever since I was two hes been a two minute walk from my house. His house was always an available place to go if I was in trouble. I could always count on him to help me out. But now hes going to be in another state. Oh well - I know we're still going to be close. If caleb and I were going to die it wouldve allready happened with all the crap weve put each other through. Hmmmm....we're also going to go shopping tomorrow. I need jeans - tons and tons of jeans. in fact - i need to buy probaby something like 5 pairs of jeans. Hmmm...anyway - im not in a spectacular mood so I apologize if this is not a fascinating blog to read. I had a good time tonight hanging out with you amrtin - since I know youll actually read this!!!Remember - august 20th!!! Goodnight you all. I now have to go talk ot my unhappy boyfriend = "oh dream of dreams!!!Oh joy of joys!!"